Argh. My Ex Gf Wont Let It Go!

[Mercury]

I'm about frusrated. Back before Christmas, me and my Girlfriend broke up. After 4 1/2 good years, (Well, things started going down hill after over 3 years), The decision was made to stop seeing one another before there were any harsh feelings made between us.

I'm at the age where I want to get married, so did she, but there were problems that needed ironed out before anything as such could take place. The biggest one was, I want kids, she 100% does not. Thats a real tuff one to get over there. And due to all the other complications, we decided to split up.

Well, ever since then, she's been calling me, stopping by at ungodly hours (She never used to stop by my house before.), calling me and taking a renewed intrest in my intrests.

I have been through the break up several times again and again since then. Each time, its just as tear jerking, and heart breaking.

Well, last week, I told my Ex about Marya. (Me and my Ex still e-mail each other.) I thought it would be best to tell her up front, than for her to find me and Marya at a public place together. I would hate for my Ex's feelings to be crushed like that, and I wouldnt want any chance of a Public scene (thats not good for a starting relationship..Having your Ex jump on a table at a restraunt and throwing a Steak or Salad at your head.)

Well, tonight she calls me, and says.

"I wont be your fall back. Its either me or this Marya girl. I wont have you keeping me haning like this."

Once again, we talked for 4 hours on the phone, and went through the whole painfull proccess again. And once again, I am saddened even more deeply and more upset.

I hate to keep hurting my Ex Girlfriend, she is a really good hearted person, but I'm not going to live my entire life regretting the decision I made if I stayed with her.. I mean.. I want kids..She doesnt. There are also several other things more than that. But...

And one of her old co-workers from Wal-Mart invited her out to the lot (Wife of the guy who has the fastest Mustang out there.....The Ripper) Saturday...Umm..thats going to make for an akward situation seeing as how me and Marya will probably be out there Saturday (Not if everything goes as I hope though ).

Oh, and My ex's best friend..Bee (If you all remember my previous posts about her) Is still asking when me and her are going to go out. Man..This is getting ....possibly messy. I told Bee about Marya, and she sounds jealous and was talking about how she might go out there one of these Saturday nights just to say Hi..

Gesh...I'm trying to figure out a way to tell Marya about this mess without scaring her away or making her think bad things about me...

I can just imagine...Bee, my Ex, and Marya all pull up at the same time and come walking towards me. All eyeing one another and wondering what one another is doing out here. I'll be stuck in the middle and either

A. Torn to shreds by all three.
B. Kicked in the nuts by my Ex, and have the other two come to my rescue.
C. Hop in my car and hual gluttos maximus to the closest bar.
D. Have my car keyed.
E. Place a five dollar bet that "Bee" will be the last girl standing, and gather other bets.

I'll have to thank the Rippers wife for that one...I'm dead. With my luck, the Waitress from Houlihans will pull up with the girl that asked me out at work (That I had to fire). That would top off that Sundaee (Meaining Ice Cream treat, metaphorically speaking.)