ERIC.........
Hey...I know I was not gonna post tonight cuz im trying to get this garage sale **** together, but THIS I can not let slide.........
I can totally relate but something you have to keep in mind, is that you are NOT alone! I think that us being where were at (age wise) and basically knowing what we want out of life, but just dont know how to achieve it, and it gets to the point to where you feel helpless and hopeless.
. I get like that alot myself...but you HAVE to not let it affect your day to day routine(work, eating, etc.) I know it is easier said than done. I'm just the opposite, I'll eat more, and of corse, women have a tendancy to cry more.
If you have ins. I would suggest to talk to a therapist...it does help some...you are able to COMPLETELY open up, and they will try to make you understand why you feel like you do....You sound like you might be to the point where it would be a good idea...they can prescribe you an anit-depressant to keep you functioning normally...if they feel you need it.
When there are so many issues weighing on your mind, and there seems to be no 'quick' answers to them, and the uncertainty as to weather anything will ever work out, is enough to drive anyone insane. Its TOUGH! BUT....not being alive is NOT the answer. There is no 'cause' to why you are feeling the way you do...it just comes from your circumstances in your life, knowing where you WANT to be, and what you want, and not being able to achieve it..YET....BUT that does not mean it will not happen...
You gotta hang in there. Till you find someone to really talk to, you will most likely not feel any better. Sometimes getting an outsiders perspective can help. I know that what I have said will prolly not help much, but just to let you know that alot of us can relate and know where you are coming from....for whatever reasons...Life can be a real bich sometimes, you just gotta suck it up, and move on. And live it day to day....thats what I try to do.
That kind of rollercoaster ride is not a good one!!!!!!!! I think you have my phone #'s if you EVER want to call me and talk.....I'd love to talk to you! PLEASE dont hesitate to call me if you need a friend....I'll be here.
Please take care, and find something to occupy your mind. Just know that you have lots of friends here who love you and respect you and will always be here for ya!
Your a good man, and You have alot to be thankful for..I know its hard to believe, been there many times myself, and still am alot!. (not being a man, of corse), but the situation.
I love ya man, and like I said, PLEASE CALL ME AT ANYTIME IF YOU NEED TO TALK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok?
Christine