Found out I have cancer
 

4 Weeks ago I found out that I have cancer. I just now got the courage to tell my family. I am in the middle stages of it. The pain is awful. I will be in surgery next week and then will under go intensive chemo-therapy. I am in such shock. Reallity has not set in quit yet. The type of cancer I have is the most aggressive the doctors tell me. It is testical cancer. I am embarrassed to say it but I need to tell my friends here at MW. When I told my wife she cried for 12hrs straight which also made me VERY upset to see her sad. I can deal with it right now because like I said the reality has yet set in. Please say a prayer with me and hope for the best. Thanks:D

Our prayers are with you.

I'm not religious, but I will pray for you. I can't begin to imagine what you must be going through, but you know that you have family and friends right here, if you need us for anything.

Take care,
~Chris

brian: check you pm's

I can really feel for you man, my wife is finishing up her last few days of radiation for breast cancer. We were fortunate she didn't have to have chemotherapy, but she will be on meds for years to come and we probably won't be able to have any more kids. Thats pretty sobering when my wife just turned 29. On the brighter side, her cousin was diagnosed with testicular cancer when he was 22(about 5 years ago). He went through chemo and is doing fine. The main thing is to keep a positive attitude and take all of the support your family and friends will give you. I have always been a bull-headed kind of guy, but if it weren't for everyone helping out with my wife, I don't know how we would of made. Good luck and I'll pray for you.

Thank You so much guys, it really means a lot to me. I have been up for 36 hrs straight now. For some reason I just can not get to sleep. Oh well I will try to get some sleep soon. Thanks again!

Prayers are with you Brother!
 

My prayers are with you! Although I never ended out on your side of the fence, after the birth of my son, the doctors took 3.5 years trying to determine what I had. For this time frame it was either an auto immune response, hodgkins, or non-hodgkins lymphoma. It was a long, fearful, dark and lonely road.

The saddness and empathy I feel for you brother is unreal. You are on a long dark road, but know there is light and people who care. Sleep will return when the fear subsides. I took the non-sleeping time to put my things in order and, although prayed for the best, prepared for the worst.

Godbless you and your wife! Please keep us apprised of your prognosis.

Maybe if you looked into Lance Armstrong's story on your type of cancer you could pull some hope and strength.

Jennifer
aka Jane of all Trades

I hope nothing but the best for you Brian. The doctor did say it's the most aggresive, but it's also one that many people survive through. I, like Chris, am not the religious type but I'll certainly be saying a few words for you. I hope the surgery gets rid of the pain. Just try to remember to always do your best to stay positive or it can mess up more than where you have cancer.

Best wishes for you,
Jonathon

Just wondering, sort of for my sake as well, what exactly causes testicular cancer?

Man I feel for you, I can't relate but when I read that message it just turns my stomach. I am like many not religious but my heart and last thoughts will be of you, and wishing you the best threw all of this man. Stay strong for your wife, don't ever give up on life. Many people have over come this, and you can do the same. Take it one day at a time, and if you ever need someone to talk to feel free to PM me. We're all here for you.

§am.

Brian. after reading your post i had to join this board to let you know that i will be thinking of you and praying for you .This past year i found out that my 11 year old son had lukemea {AML} the most aggressive form.To make a long story short 6 months ago i did'nt care if i lived another day because i could'nt amagine living without him. Well after cemo,Radiation and a bone marrow transplant he is comming home this week as a healthy young man. So keep the faith and stay tuff and you will get through this.


Good luck
John


PS. My neighbor's son had testical cancer when he was in his early 20's and went through the same things as you.He is now in his late 30's and has 3 little boys of his own. and they said he would Never be able to have kids.

I'm sorry Brian. Now is the time for you to be the strongest and fight that ****. You8 are definitely in my prayers, I wish you well. Why can't someone find a freakin cure yet???!?!? :mad:

sorry to hear about your condition. what is the next step? you should PM odie. that poor woman went through the worst. she can probably help you more than we could, i think.

hope you get better.:(

Man, I'm sorry to hear about that. I hope that you get over it.

Daniel.

Hang in there, you'll get through it.

We're here for support!

Next step is a biopsy. Removal of the testie. Only way to test for sure. Will know when the surgery is tomorrow afternoon. Thanks for the support guys I really need it.

My prayers are already out there for you, Brian.

Just remember that the human will is probably the strongest force on this earth. Will yourself through it. Don't ever even think of giving up, and you may be surprised at what your body can do. A good older friend of mine died recently. His body was completely eaten with cancer which I believe began in his liver (bad news). They gave him three months. That was almost two years ago. The only reason he didn't pass earlier is that he was TOUGH. Tougher than anyone has a right to be.

Anyway, in his case, it was too late for his body to fight back, but you're young and with the doctor's help, we pray that you can beat this thing.

--nathan

Jonathan,

To address your question.... No one really knows what causes cancer. Many think there is some genetic link, a correlation which has been made within many forms of cancer. Perhaps it results from injury, or from environmental agents or chemicals, horemone supplements, etc. Many times, it may just be an error in mitosis where the genetic code gets scrambled to some degree (which, when you think of how many times cells within our bodies undergo mitosis each day, it's amazing we don't have many more errors in replication). Bottom line, it results from some sort of damage to the DNA of the cell.

Basically, all cancer is is renegade cells. Cells that are dysfunctional in that they have uncontrolled replication and function. The reason testicular cancer is a very aggressive cancer results from the fact that the normal cells in the testes reproduce very rapidly to begin with. When cancer forms, that just helps it grow fairly quickly. Also, a rich blood supply to the genetal areas can allow metastasis (the cancerous cells spread to another area of the body and take up residence). This is also the case in areas like the liver which has an unbelievable cell replication rate with a tremendous blood flow.

That fact is that every one of us has some sort of cancerous cells. However, for the vast majority, our immune systems are able to keep tabs on the renegade cells and the cancer cells never gain a foothold as they aren't all that robust. However, when the cancer becomes too aggressive and our own body cannot rid itself of these cells, that is where problems begin.

I'm no expert in cancer, but that is a very basic base for understanding what exactly cancer is.

--nathan

brian , oh man why didnt you call us man, oh man, im so sick of hearing this news about people, call odie & me, da----it, im so da--- sick of hearing all this, you still got my # if not pm, or e - mail us , i just dont know what to say brian. :( :( :( :( :( , god bless you & your family.

Prayers on the way!

One of my friends had it. We all cried and carrie don like the end of the world...
Now 4 years later, he is cancer free. No false hopes here, but a word of encouragement!

I'm very sorry to hear about your condition. I can't fix it or pretend to know how to make you feel better. I will pray for you and your wife and family.
There is a book called "Its not about the bike" by Lance Armstrong, the American cyclist who just won the tour of France, for the fourth time. He has had the same thing you have now. The book is about the time and troubles he went though. Its a very good book. He beat it when all his doctors said he couldn't.
So can you.

Brian... I'm so sorry to hear that...I lost my grandparents to diff. cancers and someone very close to me lost his daughter at 13 to Cancer 10 years ago. The best you can do at this point is to be honest with those closest to you and let them help you deal with it. It can be conquered........Please let them help you with it and let them be there for you....that is soo important!!!!!!! You need the support of your family and friends....
I keep thinking one day this is gonna spring on me too......I cant understand why some are chosen so young to have to deal w/ this.....its not fair. My prayers and my well wishes are there for you and your family..... hang in there and KNOW that you will KICK IT IN THE ***!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)
Those that say they are not religious, that is their choice. I feel we ALL have a higher POWER to answer to one day! I was raised in a very religious family, although, I might not always carry that out, I will pray for you and for you to be healed.
Best of luck to your and to your family...
Christine TNT :)

my thoughts and prayers are with u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As so many have mentioned, the human spirit is hard to break.
Hang in there and rely on family and friends to help carry you through this difficult time.
My prayers are with you and your family.

Kelly

I'm so very sorry to hear about this :(

This disease is one I so wish they can someday find a cure for.

As for yourself,be strong and fight it! Dont ever give up hope and fight it!

Hi Brian,
My heart goes out to you and your wife. I can certanily relate to what you are going through. My prayers are out to you and your family. There are several sites you or your wife can go into. I myself go to Friends in Touch its mainly for breast cancer but we do have 2 men who have cancer and can be of some help to you. And your wife as being a care giver. There's so much I would like to talk to you about about that might help you and your wife through the chemo and your recovery. But I won't do it here. If you would want me to check into some sites to find out more info on your type of cancer I would be more than glad to. Just say the word. And its done..I don't want to push you or your wife into anything but if she needs a friendly voice or you do, just pm me and I will give you my number.. God Bless you and your family, my prayers you up to you...Hugs Odie

You guys do not know how much this means to me (the responses). I tuly do feel I have a family outside of my own. You guys here at MW are AWSOME! I meen that with all my heart. I go in for surgery on Wednsday morning. I have a good feeling about this. My chin is up and all will be fine. Thanx Guys:p

Us Mustang guys stick together, we're all here cheering you on! :D Don't worry you'll be fine, aslong as you stay strong and never give up! Before you know it, you'll be back on the road racin' the 'stang. :D :D :D Just remember we don't want to see any scar pictures. :D If you need to talk to someone always feel free to PM me.

§am.

Dude, that sucks...that's all I can say about that...it sucks....

But it's here...who knows why, and the next step is getting through it, which you will. It's gonna be rough, but im sure I speak for everyone here when I say that you have our total support man. Keep us updated, and god bless you.

**** man thats horrible. GOD I HATE hearing stuff like this.... I hope you the best. Do they have any idea what caused it?

Skyler

keep up a good fight ,miricles happen everyday

you'll be in my prayers

I know its hard to keep a positive attitude, but like everybody else said, Keep your head up high. You can beat this thing. Lance Armstrong is one example and so is John Kruk (the baseball player). They both made it through and are here today. You will be too.

And I am a religious person, so I'll be praying for ya.;)

My friend, who I played football with, also had testicular cancer. He was diagnosed when he was 19 and had to stop playing football. He went through all of the treatment and the surgeries and when he was 22 years old, he was cancer free and after signing a waiver, was given clearance to play football once again! He is now coaching football in europe and he is now 25 and hasn't had any recurrences.
You can fight this, it's gonna take a lot of strength, heck Lee became a shell of himself before he got back to his normal self, but he did get there and I am envious on his new outlook on life. Remeber, what doesn't kill you can only make you stronger.

brian hang in there bro, let me & odie know how it goes, remem ber, we got a race to run, after i get my x pipe on, but really, let us know, prayer's out to ya man.:)

Marty We have known each other for a while now and you have been nothing but a true friend bro. I really do appreciate all of the support u and your wife have sent to me. I tmeans the world to me. You know the darn insurance company is giving me the runaround making me see all of these doctors one after another when the could just have taken in out the first time I went in. I hate waiting. But tomorrow will be my biopsy and then a decsion whether or not to admit me into the hospital to do the final surgery or not. I still might have to wait a bit longer. Meanwhile they have put me on some relaxation drugs to calm me down and make me sleep but they have not helped on bit. If it was no for the support of my Wife who is the world to me and the gang at MW I probally would have lost my mind. What really pisses me off is the guys at work are already making smart remarks about my condition and it burn me up. Only if they knew the pain and suffering I am having to endure they would change their tune. Not that I wish anyone to go through this I wish they would just grow up and show me a little support. But screw them. I know who my true friend are. Thanx again guys and god bless:p

man pi-- on them, i bielieve if you make fun of someone's physical hardship & -or handicap it will come back on you, so they may not know what they are bringing on themselve's - idiot's:mad: tell them, dont make me come to your job, they aint seen a pis--d off rebel boy, yet. you just worry about getting yourself straight. take care my brotha, god be with you.:)

Brian: we're always here for you and only a phone call away. true friend are there no matter what and they should know when to keep there smart remarks to themselves!! as for the doctors we got the same thing here, run to this for a test then back to first to get the results then decide what to do, then another doctors visit. take care buddy and we'll see ya soon down here in sunny fla but remember: no stickers or fart pipe on the car!!! :p :p :D

well got back from the doctor 5 minutes ago and they decided to reconfirm test and not cut into me quite yet. They gave me a pregnacy test which test the level of hormones and a cat scan. The test was positive and cat scan revield it has spread into my stomache lymphnodes. Not good news at all. But on the positive side it has not gone into my liver yet. Surgery is set for next week to remove all infected parts. Not happy at all but recovery rate is very high. They have doped me up with anti-depresents and I to feel somewhat better. Wish they would just do it all now but have to follow the insurance policy ways. I am very scared now. I have 2 kids at home and 2 more in Fl. Called my ex-wife and she will not even let me talk to them on the phone.To top it off my work wonders why I cant come in and work with all of this stuff on my mind and the pain I am in---screw them, all i am to them is a number anyway they can ***** off. I would like to see them now. Some might think I am a sissy but I am crying right now. I do need a shoulder to cry on. Wish my wife would come home now. Anyway thought I would give u guys the latest news. See ya all soon!

Forget your work man. You can always find another job, you can't get a new you.

At least there was some positive news. The fact that your liver is good is a real big positive actually. That in and of itself is a victory. You won that battle and soon you'll win the war.

I remember Tom green had cancer throughout his lymph nodes and he went through the operation, and he survived. They put some of it on tv. It can certainly be done and his had spread to a lot more places than yours has.

I know the example has been used many times, but just think of what Lance Armstrong has done since he had the operation.

You'll get through it. We're all here for ya man.
I'll just have to say an extra long prayer tonight for you.;)

Brian: i wish we could just wake up and this is just a bad dream but unfortunatly it isn't and it's gonna take alot of fight to keep this in control. keep fighting and never give up and we'll all be here waiting to hear about your next kill in the street racers forum.

Mike I will see you and John Dec 13th and we tear the streets up in SW Fl how bout that big guy, sound like fun? Tomorrow I am putting a 300 Jet in My n2o to see what it is like. Wanna ride? Oh by the way the doctors will be removing my bad parts Wednsday and I will be all better and ready to play. Be good and safe:)

brian hang in there bud, you can beat this, odie lost 16 lymph nodes, not a big deal, the good news is it isnt in your liver, that is VERY good, my brother lost a testicle to a hernia, & still had another son after, so hang in there bro, we are thinking about you. :)

what i dont understand is the people who are giving you hard time about your condition. i never heard of people doing that! you probably can sue them if they fire you for your condition. fuking idiots!

what is the name of the company you work for? maybe the thousands of MW members can flood thier phone lines and complain how big of an aszholes they really are! Also, who are these rejects you work with?:mad: :mad:

hope you pull through!

James....

Do i want a ride?? HELL YEAHHHHHHHH!!! :D :D :D

James Thanks for the support. The people at work that are giving me hard time are 2 people in the office that have never liked me from day one. My boss is real cool about the situation. They thought it was funny when the doctors gave me a pregnancy test and it came up positive. Other people at work overheard them laughing saying Brian is going to have a baby. Stupid things like that. They also wonder why I am not cured yet--like it is supposed to just go away. I remember one time when I had kidney stone and was pouring blood out of my private area ans they laughed and said it is no big deal I was over reacting cause i stayed in the hospital for five days and had surgery to remove the stones. Then one week later that person had the same thing happen to them and they did not laugh anymore. Maybe this person will get ovary cancer and lets see how she reacts to it. You seee they think there is no way I can have so many medical problems. But hey some of us do and it is no laughing matter. They will get what is coming to them later on in life when Judgement day arrives. I could go on for hrs talking how this one person HATES me. I have no idea why I have never done anything to this woman at all. Oh well I guess that is life. Thanx again bro it is nice to know some people really do care.

oh that burn's me up brian, a guy at work told me i should ditch lee because she has cancer, it took everything i had & 2 guy's to keep me from killing him with my bare hands, geez some people are so freakin stupid.:rolleyes:

So VERY true Marty:mad:

if i was there, my back would be turned.....

yeah i would have done the SAME thing if i was in your shoes. actually no i wouldnt. thier WOULDNT be people able to hold me back!

Dont worry Marty, thier is always a dark alley to be found......

My prayers are with you Brian.
I watched my dad suffer through Colan cancer from the begining so I have witnessed what you are going through. The best thing for you I believe is to not let this thing get you down. Keep smiling and God will do the rest!

:)
 

The people you work for are assholes.....I cannot even believe what I just read....that is so inhuman, uncaring and down right bullshit. That pisses me off and I hope they have ten fold what your dealing with....
all my best to you and your family and I will keep you in my prayers....
TNT :D

Hi Brian,
Well I have just read all the posts and am very upset about the idiot you have to work with. But like so many have said there day will come. And remeber God knows who they are. My heart goes out to you in so many ways. I can understand the fear, fustration, anger, sadness and everything else you are feeling. And I know that you might have a hard time telling your wife how you are feeling because I did have a hard time with telling Marty how I was feeling and it took me some time to be able to tell him all my feelings. And thats OK. But I do know that talking with the one you love makes a big difference. I was afraid to worry Marty but all I was doing was making it worse. Now he knows all my feelings and sometimes maybe to much. But thats what he is here for.
Sorry I am ratteling on about myself but I hope that through this you can see where I am coming from with letting your wife know how you feel. Its Ok to have all the crazy feelings it natural, and anytime you or your wife want to talk with me please feel free to do so. Friends, real friends mean so much. And that what we are here for.
Oh one other thing. When going to see your docs. it gets fustrating cause it seems like you go and sit and wait. And thats true for our part. But they have to consult with other docs to make sure they are performing the right decision for your case and make the right deciosion for your situation. So with this pactience is a virtua. And at times its a real big pain in the a** but hang in there. I know everything is going to turn out just fine. Your tough and this will make you even tougher. And I don't mean that the bad way...so hang in there..your friend Odie:cool: