[Mercury]

Thank you everyone for advice and input. I began to realize that I was over my head the night I went over her apartment.

I came to the conclusion that I either needed to find another women more like the ones I've dated in the past, or make a serouis effort to understand and work with this women, and have a more meaningfull and complete relationship.

I've never taken the easy way in anything I do.

Today was when I realized what you all ment when you told me to slow down in the prevoius thread. Not neccassarily slow down the growth of feelings towards the women, but to slow down my approach. In a way, to demand less attention of this person. TireBurner, I think you hit the nail on the head with the "Look at me. Look at me!" statement.

MR 5.0

You are right as usual, and of course, as usual posted your reply in such a great way.

I ask myself those questions everytime there is a prospect. I would not see anyone if I could not see myself marrying them. To me, there is no point in a relationship if it can not grow, and reach higher levels. I would not waist my time or effort on any other relationship.

As for bieng intimate, There is nothing physcially wrong with me, but I have other problems that keep me from seeking intimate relationships. Put it this way, I dont like ANYONE touching me. NO ONE...I cant even hug my parents, or my family with out cringing. A pat on the back from a Co-WOrker/friend/aquantance/family even sends chills down my spine.

I can handle it only if I trust the person to an extent for which there is no words to describe, and usually by that point, I have already told them why I am the way I am. So intimacy is far from being a priority, and far from important at this time. One day that bridge will be crossed, but I have much more important things to think of.

Thank you everyone for your words of wisdom. They have helped me understand things, and see things alot clearer.