Well man... that sucks to hear. I think a lot of us have been in similar situations. Let me share a short story with you... might make you feel better. I didn't go through the exact same thing you have, but my ex whom I went out with for 3 years said something around those lines. That she wanted to date other people for a while. She didn't want to be tied down just yet. Well we never got back together and I'd suspected she'd been cheating on me and it turned out she had been... for the entire 3 years we were together!!! Talk about one of the lowest feelings you could ever feel... worthless... naive... I was way down... felt like total crap. So it can always be worse man.
I'm now with my wonderful girlfriend of 2 years and we've both promised each other eternity beyond time together. We're very much in love... I mean we're talking feelings and emotions we brought out in each other that neither of us have ever felt before. She's had a lot of problems in her life. She's a very beautiful person with a very warm soul who's had nothing but a crap hand dealt to her all her life... her ex boyfriend abused her physically... he wanted her to be perfect for him and she developed an eating disorder because of it... her crazy sister just got out of jail and has tried numerous times to make her OD by drugging her food and drinks... and her body isn't strong enough to bounce back from that like a normal person... she's very weak due to her eating disorder... and right now as we speak she's lying in a hospital bed because her body and heart are so weak from not getting the nutrients needed for years now. Her sister drugged her and she basically collapsed, so she's been in the hospital all this week. I feel so helpless. I wish I could take her place so that she'd never have to go through this.
on a positive note though... long before my parents got married my mother wanted to date other people... and my father remained the guy that she went back to for a shoulder to cry on... and look at them now... they've been happily married for over 30 years...
every relationship is different... sometimes things turn out the way you'd expect... sometimes they don't... you just have to trust your heart... try and look at the bright side Josh... things may look bleak now... but they can always get worse... just be glad you're not at rock bottom!
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