Me and Marya were talking/dating for 4 months. While that is a relatively short time considering the shortest relationship I was in before was 2 years, it is still not to be taken lightly just because of the time we were together.
Thank you all for the positive comments and support I really do appreciate it.
It would be hypacritical of me to break up with her because she has Mental Issues. I myself have had (ANd still do to an extent)major problems in the past, what helped me over come them was a women from a prior relationship (My Ex that I dated for 4 years). The thing is, I'm alot more open with my feelings and emotions than Marya is. I was wanting help, and willing to find peace, Marya didnt want to admit she needs help and guidance. She thinks she can tackle her problems and past experiences (Which I will not get into, but she has reason to be the way she is) on her own. A very tuff nut to crack.
People who have problems need help also. If left alone things dont go away, they reccess back into the farthest reaches of the mind, lingering. ONly to come back in magnitudes when certian things trigger memories. The feeling is so overwhelming, the pain is so overbearing. NOthing matters when one is in such a state..NOTHING. It is impossible to explain how it feels, how it hurts. The only thing that might come close to describing the feeling is being lost in a deep, dark cave, with no light, all alone. The pain is impossible to describe.
As I said, her "Problems" had nothing to do with me braking up with her. If anything I want to help her out, and asure her everything will be okay, that there is no reason to fear demons from the past and everything to look foward to in the future.
Thanks Sandman, I appreciate your help in this. I know this makes it hard for you since your both our friend.
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