Please listen to this and help me through it because I don't know what to do.
I had been seeing my girlrfiend for two and a half years when we had a
huge fight and stopped dating (the week of Valentine's day). I eventually got her to talk to me again (about three weeks later) and made some drastic changes. I told her I was going to stop drinking and going out. I sent her cards everyday for two weeks telling her how much I love her. I made a complete 180
for her . I kept asking her if we could date again and she kept saying "I want to see what happens during summer". She thought that I would forget about her during summer but I didn't. All I thought about was her. I wouldn't even look at other girls because I was so happy with who I was with. Just last weekend she went away with her friends for a couple days. She never called me and I could never get a hold of her.
It's now saturday. I hadn't talked to her since last friday and I hadn't seen her since the friday before that. If she wanted to be with me, she was't showing it. I would leave 3 messages a day. One at 6 am when I was leaving for work. One when I got home from work. One when I went to bed. 3 messages a day for 7 days. That's 21 messages. And she never called me back once. Today (saturday) I was in her area and decided to stop to see if she was home. She answered the door and I asked her what was wrong and why she wasn't calling me anymore. She said she didn't want to talk about it...So then I asked her if she was seeing anyone else and she said
YES .
My heart fell to the floor and she booted it through the uprights. I was totally shocked. We were supposed to be working things out and getting back together. Her birthday is on July 27 so I had planned to take her to myrtle beach for her birthday. We were going to go for 14 days. Our room was on the ocean. 15th floor, king size bed, full kitchen, oceanside, it was nice. And so she goes and starts talking to someone else when she knew that this vacation was planned!!
She kept making a big deal about the summer and about how she thought I was going to cheat on her when, in fact,
she was the one who cheated. I asked her why she was seeing someone else and she said " I just have to see". WTF!! What does she have to see?? I asked her what was wrong with our relationship and more specifically me...and she said she didn't want to talk about it. I asked her if that was it for us and she said "I don't know, I have to see". Soshe wants me to wait for her to decide if this new guyis better that me. I asked her if I should cancel vacation and she said she'll let me know.
I have no idea how this could happen. I completely changed for this girl and she decided to see someone else without telling me. I have been working 50-60 hours a week trying to save up for the vacation (which I only had a two month notice). I am only 21 and she is 18 (19 on 7/27). I know that we are young but this girl was my first everything. Most importantly, she was my first serious relationship. I made the decision to changeforher because I really thought that I was going to marry her someday but I guess I'm not now.
Please help me through this. I got burned really bad and now I feellike crawling up into a ball and dying. Should I go out and party and try and get her off my mind....or should I wait a week to see ifshe wants to dump me for this other guy or stay with me?? I think if she can do this once...she can do it again... Please give me some advise because I really need it right now.
Thank you for reading through this whole thing. I apologize for the grammer but I am shaking right now so I don't care about the grammer or spelling. I am so glad that I have a place like this to vent my feelings and get it all out.