Man, Kell, I would have totally lost it. I'm really sorry you have to experience what you are going through right now! Unlike Jim, I am a total and complete cat person. I own 7 of them (
my kids). The oldest two will be 14 this year, and I know they aren't long for this world. I know I will totally lose it when they die. These felines really are the closest thing I have to children of my own, and I don't do the death thing very well. I just can't even imagine that phone call you had when they gave you your instructions. You are a far stronger man than I probably gave you credit for, Kell, and I hope this settles okay within you. We both know it wasn't your fault at all.
Take care,
-Chris