Hey Damian..
Damn....Sounds like you have been dealing with yet more over the past year or so.... You have always been a very strong person, and by reading your post tonight, it made me feel good cuz although you've dealt w/ alot of ****, it sounds like you have a grip now on life and where you want and need to be.
I never see your posts as 'rambling' you are just someone who is very open about your feelings, and I think thats cool, cuz most guys are so introverted about that type of thing, and I commend you for being the way you have ALWAYS been, very open and honest about things...
We all have our skeletons...and they can either teach us how make us change for the better, and make the best of life, or they can drive us in the dirt. Im really sorry that you had such a hard time...and I hope that things work out for you. I hope that if you are trying to get your g/f back that she will forgive you and that things will work out for you. True love is WAAYYY too hard to find....(I know you know that). When you find your 'soulmate' you cant let them go!
It sounds like you have dealt with alot over the past year or so, and it has made you grow and realize what is important to you.
I hope that things work out for you like you are wanting...You are a good person, and you deserve all the happiness that you are entitled to..
just hang in there...I'm glad I checked out the boards tonight...Ive gone for weeks w/out checking out these boards...but I'm glad I did tonight.
It was good to see you here.
Take care, and I wish you all the best!
TNT