Merc: sounds pretty normal the way you feel right now. I know it's hard to put into words, but having dealt with
2 such relationships in the past, I can only tell you that there
is light at the end of the tunnel, my friend. I'll give you a tip, though. Stay away from the art, the music, perfumes, city parks, etc. All of this will only serve to bring up memories, and I know after this kind of relationship that's the worst. After a while (it was almost a YEAR for me), you'll feel a lot better. When you think of her, you won't think, "God, what the hell went wrong? What did I do?" You'll think, "ha, I'm a lot better off now than I was then. I'm not fighting constantly, and I don't have to work so hard to be happy." Okay, mebbe that's not the exact words, but you get the idea. You won't hate her right away. You say you still love her now, but believe me bud, that's the fuel to your fire. The love I had for someone just ate me alive afterwards, like what's happening to you. That numb, mindless feeling is only temporary. The best cure for all of this? Get out with friends. Go out and don't bemoan your loss. You're a single guy now, man!!! Get out there and enjoy it!!!
Trust me, in a little while, you'll be back in the groove. Get through this hard time by just letting her go, and let love do its work to find you again. Good luck, Merc.
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