Saturday=Awesome! Sunday=Nightmare

[Mercury]

As the hands of the clock chip away at time, another page is filled with the events of my life. It seems there are few days that I have only a few blurbs or sentences to write in the book of life. Most days are a page filling episode.

This last Saturday was so far, the highest point in my relationship with Marya. All of my uncertianties, and doubts became washed away throughout the day. For once, the clouds were starting to clear and it was becoming apparent how she feels for me.

She came over my house and met my family for the first time. Everything went perfect. Never an awkward moment, or a embarrasing word said, everyone liked everyone. Marya and I took my little sister to Wal-Mart and McDonalds. Then we washed Marya's car.

Of course, the innocence of makes kids say things at the darndest times. While Marya, Abbie (My little 5 yr old sis) and I washed the Trans-Am, Abbie says "Marya, I like you. Your real nice like Shuyin."

I cringe and swear under my breath.

"Oh really." Marya exlaims. Abbie continues. "Yeah, Shuyin's a friend of Dami's. She's Chinnesse like you. Shuyin hasnt been over in a long time."

I groan. Look at Marya. She looks at me and silently words "Its okay."

She visits with my family and we play with my little sister for a couple of more Hours. Then Marya had to go. We met up later that night at the "Lot".

Even though it had rained a few hours prior, the roads had dried pretty quickly, and a decent amount of people were out there.

I met up with Marya, we mingled for about 3 hours talked to our friends, watched cars leave and head on off to race. A Mustang kept cruising by and reving, I see the guy every night on the way home from work, he thinks he's hot stuff. After the 8th time of him driving by and roasting them down. I hopped in and tried to follow him, but I took to long to get in my car and to find my keys. I drove around looking for him though.

When I came back, Marya finally challenged me to a race. I will tell how that went in another thread......
Thats one worth reading...hehehehe.

After the fun. We went back to the hang out for a few minutes, and she turned looked at me and with this look in her eyes she asked if I wanted to go back to her place and just kick our feet up and relax. She said she was tired of standing around. So we did.

It was great. We talked about a lot of things, learned even more about one another, and for once, doubts I had, and Confusion started to clear up. I stayed till pretty late, then when I went to leave.....I wont give all the details, I'm not one to KISS and tell. All I'll say is I felt all giddy and like a little school boy. I was so swept away that when I finally made it to the door, and walked out the door, I tripped over her RollerBlades on the front porch and went falling into the bush.

My heart and mind were spinning.

SUNDAY.....The Day of Hell.

Sunday started off good enough, I woke up early, was in a great mood, danced and sung as I did my chores and cleaned. Talked to Marya. She spent the first part of the day with her daughter. Marya wanted to introduce me to her daughter. But I couldnt, I still had alot of chores and errands I had to run.

Later on, the daugther wanted to spend the night at her Fathers house. That opened up the chance for me and Marya to spend some quite quality time together. So we set up plans for our first Formal Dinner Date. We were going to go for a walk in this park she knows afterwards and look at the stars.

I wasnt nervous at all. I pulled up to her house and she answered the door. Her smile was so beautifull and her eyes filled with such happiness. She looke amazing, she was wearing a pretty dress. I was taken back.

I got to drive too! We went to a Japenesse restraunt, Tai Show's. They cook infront of you and do all that fancy stuff. Things were going great. The best. It looked like Sunday was going to top off Saturday night.

Then.....It happened. I was eating. Enjoying the moment. When I looked up and something caught my attention. I recognized that persons hair, and the back of ther head. I looked to the right of that person, and easily recongnized them also.

OH S##T

It was my Ex, and her best friend Bee. First time I've been in a situation like that. What do I do! The worst thing....Panic. My appitite went to hell. I was afraid that if my Ex saw me, she'd make this big scene. And I knew she saw my car outside. Theres no missing it. It was only a matter of time before she would turn around and see me, and .....

A. Get up. Walk over and throw drink/food at either me and/or Marya.
B. Walked over and slapped me.
C. Walked over and kicked me in the nuts.
D. Walk over, start crying and yelling at me.

Which would of caused Marya to do....
A. Stand up and Slap Shuyin.
B. Grab Shuyin by the hair and a Death Match unfold on the flaming Habachi Table for everyone to see.
C. Been upset and started crying. And been embarressed.
D. I have no idea.

So, I started having like an anxiety attack. My mind shut down. I dont really remember all the detials, all I remember is me and Marya left, she was mad at me. I went to drop her off, and we went inside to talk about it for a minute. (Turned out to be a couple of hours) Things seemed to be smoothing out. She cried, I cried, she yelled, I yelled, she cried some more, I apologized. I went to leave, and all hell broke loose.

I'm usually a very receptive person, and can pick up on all kinds of hints, and read a person very well. But not that night. It cost me big time too. I was in such a state of panic..that I didnt do anything right. Everything I did turned out to be wrong. Marya was extremely jealous of my Ex and bee.

In the end, I got a door slammed on my face, called 5 mintues later and (I have never heard My girlfriend swear) got a explosive phone call a couple of minutes later. She said just about every word in the book. Some I didnt know exististed.



The whole time I was driving to drop off the money, and the whole way home she just blew up...Then when I got home, and she found out I was home, her mood changed. She started crying uncontralably, sobbing heavily. She was saying all kinds of things...Things about how she felt about me, and how she was hurt. She let something Slip...She probably doesnt know it.

I felt like crap..She was crying and had just told me she loved me. I'm confused. I dont know. She called me today (Tuesday). It seems that we will work things out. Hopefully. It would be really foolish to throw it all away because of one fight...The first fight. Those are usually the hardest to get over also.

My Ex called Sunday night...I was HOT It was my turn to explode. I asked what the hell she was thinking by doing that. I told her what had happened. She said she saw my car, but thought I was there for her (I must be phsycic). She said she didnt see me inside. Anyway. I told her I didnt want anything to do with her..No talk, no stopping by, no e-mail.

Monday..My ex-calls me and offers me advice on how to take care of the situation. Very good advice. She said "We girls got to stick together, she's a very lucky women. I dont want her to screw up like I did."

Strangely, that made me feel at ease, and for the first time, at peace with our break up.

Now that that baggage is gone, time for me to patch up me and Marya.