[MissBlondie]

Well I hope this thread cheers you up a lil to know people are thinking about you. I've been away most of this past week dealing with issues like this as well. My grandma went into the hospital on x-mas eve, so I spent x-mas there this year. I've had quite a tough year as well. My father passed away earlier this year. For over 20 years I had always spent X-mas eve with him. Was very odd this year. I went back home to spend it with my mom, but really just wanted to be left alone. I sat on my bad and staired out the window for hours that night wondering why god choses to make us morn and wondering why me. I don't want to get into a big religious speel, but I figure he has his reasons, and maybe someday I'll understand. It's all in his plan for me. I've lost people close to me before, but I never truely understood what missing someone was like until now. Everyone tells me that over the years it will get easier, we'll see. Just makes you realize how special the people are that are actually still in your life, and to not take them for granted. I have that poem "Footprints in the Sand" hanging in my bathroom, so each morning it reminds me that I am never alone. Well hope everyone had a happy holiday and 1969 Mach there's always a light at the end of that tunnel!

~Jill