Yo Merc, keep moving forward. While I cannot relate to all of your problems, I will tell you of some of my more depressed times. I was in a relationship with a girl for two years, I felt we were going to get married. Then out of the blue, she wanted to break up. I was so distraught. Less than a month a later she was dating a 55 yer old man! WTF! Every thing seemed so perfect then all of a sudden, nothing. I was so down. I cried for the longest time. I thought we were so happy together but I was wrong. I joined a gym and started weight lifting to occupy my time after school(college). I just did things to keep me occupied. Last year, my mom died of cancer. I sat and watched her whither away until she died. Those were some of the hardest days of my life. You just have to keep moving forward. Whatever doesn't kill you will make you stronger. You have to remember that is part of life. Shi# happens! Since I started weight lifting I've become a competitive natural bodybuilder. And I always place when I compete. So just keep moving forward, you never know where life takes you.
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