Is it me? Or do you Guys have the same problem? (Girls can help me on this too)

[1969Mach1]

My g/f and I have been going out for almost 5 months (on Dec. 3rd). Things have had their ups and downs but I've always managed to make things work.

I always take the blame for the problem (I know sometimes it is me but still...) Anyway; to my question.

Does it bother you if your g/f goes out and hangs out with other guys?
O.K., I don't want to control her life and tell her what to do and what not to do...that's just not me. But she went out with one of her friends and one of my good friends a couple of times and I told her that I didn't like that (because of another story) but she still did it once afterwords and blamed it on her friends.
It was just that I was getting lied to everytime they hung out and I felt like I was being left out too.

Now to my NEW problem. She asked me if I would be mad if she hung around her guy friends and I said I wouldn't mind (and I don't think I would) but I know until it happens it may bother me. I told her I should be fine - depending on what they do.

I'm jealous - I know that - but is this normal and what should I do? It doesn't bother me but I can't help thinking of it - over and over and over.

{I'm on the phone with her and she's talking to one of her guy friends and I've been on hold for like 5 minutes now!)

Guys - help me! Am I being blind - should I see that something is happening?

Also by accident (it really was an accident) I read an email she sent to a friend saying she liked this guy (who she is talking on the phone with him right now). She said it was a joke but I know it wasn't a joke. And I know she loves me but I'm wondering how much, and could she be playing me.

Ohh.... my that felt good to get off the chest.

But please help, I want to hear any suggestions cause I'm really lost and confused.