Hey Srv.
Sadly, I know your right. It didnt cross my mind, but I'm probably alot more interested than she is.
I feel stupid, I feel like a loser. I always get my hopes so high, and then get them dropped like a lead ballon. I set my self up for such heart ache. Once again, I'm a glutton for punishment.
I dont know why I do such stupid things. Who in the hell would want to waste there time on such an imature, little, lost, disturbed guy anyway. I wear my damn heart on my sleeve, and am to open.
She probably did have something else to do. I dont really doubt that, what bothers me is myself. I dont know why, I hardly know this women, but I'm falling for her. My instinct tells me she's someone special.
I got the same feeling with my most recent Ex. While me and her have went seperate ways, she is a real special person. We just didnt have much in common, and had to many communication problems that could not be overcome or understood. I have nothing bad to say about her.
Anyway, now that I think about it, the flower was a stupid idea. Everything I do is stupid. Why even bother caring.
Maybe next weekend, maybe not. I'll do the same thing, and feel the same way unfortunatley. I'll probably end up with another flower with no one to give it to next weekend.