That really does suck, bro. I'm sitting here thinking of some of the animals I've had the pleasure of having

. It always helps me to think back on the good times. Look at it this way bro.. atleast Rudy had a good life she wouldn't have otherwise had. Sorry for your loss
I can see both sides of the dropping her off or being there but.. I personally would have to be there to make sure her last moments are those of comfort and security. (Man that sucks!!)