Merc,
I once was where you were. I would drag myself to work and drink coffee all morning, soda all afternoon just to stay awake. Then it was home to three or more beers to help me sleep. Nothing was fun, and nothing seemed worthwhile. To top it off I was like 30 lbs overweight too.
I hated work, and I didn't recognize the mean, fat basterd I had become.
Figured out that I had to do something about it and I did. Dropped the weight, cut back on all the drinking, and am not letting work get in the way of my life. It was hard to do, but I am better off (and better at work) for it.
So now here's the joke. Read it out loud, it will make more sense.
A blonde walks into the bar, sits down and orders a beer.
Barternder looks up and says, "Anheiser Busch?"
Blonde says, "Just fine. How's you co*k?"