Merc, maybe you should lay off the girlfriends for a while. I don't want to tell you how to run your life, but when I was at MY personal worst point, I kept looking for help in others...for someone to be close to...And really, everytime you post its about "looking for a girl" or "my new gf".
I think you need to be single for a while (wimmin can be a real headache sometimes!
) and sort out what's important to
YOU in your life right now, what you would like to change about yourself, and what's missing that you liked when things were better. Hear what I'm saying?
From everything you say, you seem like the type of guy that will shower his GF in attention and emotion. That's a
good thing, but in order for you to set yourself straight, I think you may need to pay attention to YOURSELF for a while, make it "Damien Time" for once
Hang in there!