Deep subject... and I will say that I'm with ya Eric.
"Life's a *****, but I deal with it."
Just remember you're not the only one.... and things will get better, just hang in there - no pun intended!
I've never been the same since my catastrophic relationship from awhile back (been on a few dates since, but still can't get over the past, she haunts me... and 'they' can always tell)... big time depression for a long time afterwards. I spent alot of time doing absolutely nothing and sleeping the day away wishing things weren't the way they are.... before I relapse I'm going to sign off for now and go out to the garage and find something productive to do. You should do the same.
Take care...