[bri32zz]

well got back from the doctor 5 minutes ago and they decided to reconfirm test and not cut into me quite yet. They gave me a pregnacy test which test the level of hormones and a cat scan. The test was positive and cat scan revield it has spread into my stomache lymphnodes. Not good news at all. But on the positive side it has not gone into my liver yet. Surgery is set for next week to remove all infected parts. Not happy at all but recovery rate is very high. They have doped me up with anti-depresents and I to feel somewhat better. Wish they would just do it all now but have to follow the insurance policy ways. I am very scared now. I have 2 kids at home and 2 more in Fl. Called my ex-wife and she will not even let me talk to them on the phone.To top it off my work wonders why I cant come in and work with all of this stuff on my mind and the pain I am in---screw them, all i am to them is a number anyway they can ***** off. I would like to see them now. Some might think I am a sissy but I am crying right now. I do need a shoulder to cry on. Wish my wife would come home now. Anyway thought I would give u guys the latest news. See ya all soon!