Thank you old wise one. I hadn't thought of it that way. You are absolutely right. I am being punished. I just don't understand why he feels the need to punish me when he is the one who has caused this. He is the one to back out of marriage. You are right, as soon as we married, the control started. I do not believe in the control theory. No one controls anyone. I also believe marriage is a two way street. I guess the only street I was on was the one he laid out. I guess somewhere without knowing it, I step off the street. Hopefully, I will regain my life back. I am on my way. The good thing is now I don't have to always hear stuff from his mother or him. She always had something to say about everything. That stress is gone. Now, I don't have someone expecting me to be at his beg and call. Now, that I look at it, I do have alot of what was causing me stress out of my life. I am just lonely and miss life of being married. I liked being married. To have someone to share my life with. I just choose the wrong person. I guess now he is his sharing his life with his first friend, Mr. Beer and whoever he has drag into his life to fullfill his desires regardless of the feelings he will hurt. He is a very selfish person. Back to the control, the last few times we talked, all I heard from him is what I havn't done for him. Not buying beer, not fixing him a plate of food, or other things I can't mention. The bottom line is he wants total control and to be King. If not, he wants out b/c of his own insecurities.
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