Skyman,
I know exactly how ya feel. Just broke up with my g/f last Tuesday. Even though we only dated for about 4 months - we had known each other for about two and a half years prior.
I knew that this was going to happen (we hadn't been communicating like we had when we started dating lately - barely talking at all) about 1 month ago. Now - there were definitely some issues with her and I - like, she hated it when I would spend time w/ my friends - ya know, the guys getting together, drinkin' a few cold ones - shootin' the sh*t. She said that she liked my friends (which I do believe to some extent, seeing that's how I met her), but didn't like the way I acted when we were 'partying'.
In the beginning of the relationship, it was awesome - we were unseparable. She would even call me on her business trips (she travels a lot) - and say she can't wait to get back. I guess the first couple of months was just that infatuation / warm fuzzy stage.
We broke up for about a week - she just got to be too controlling. Expecting me to take her out all the time, blow off my friends, and pay for EVERYTHING!. No way am I going to do that - this is a new millennium, not the 50's - 60's!! (where the guy treats for everything).
She asked me to be her date to quite a few events over the summer - weddings, company picnic, a bar mitzvah, for a brother of a kid she used to teach. We went on road trips, and camping, I had a great time! For once I had a really great time with a chick... didn't need to be around my other rowdy guy friends getting all sh*t faced to have a good time! It was cool!
...and then comes the sex! Whoo Hoo!! She was WILD. Not a nympho, but incredibly adventurous!
She absolutely loved cunnilingus and giving fellatio.
...and LOUD! Sh*t!!! We had the cops come to a hotel we were staying at one night on a road trip we took to western Michigan. Answered the door dripping wet with sweat, the mattress and sheets off the bed...
...and in the Mustang - (does female ejaculate ruin leather)? Oh well! I had an Awesome time - by far the best sex I've EVER had!
Anyway, a couple weeks ago I ask her if she wants to do some Christmas shopping w/ me at a few outlet malls at Birch Run later this month - after Thanksgiving... she says - NO - she's going to be with her family. Then I ask (with hesitation) how about the first of December - she says No, she's got something to do at 5:00PM. I'm like, 'what'? She finally tells me it's her company Christmas party, and says she wants to go alone. (At this point I knew it was over). If it had been a few months ago - I know she would have invited me weeks before...
So, anyway - I gave her all of her stuff back, and collected all my stuff from her place on Tuesday. I was going to break it off with her this weekend - so she beat me to it. (Guess that makes me a MAJOR LOSER! esp. to any of the females that are reading this!)
As I'm leaving her place, she says 'wait, you're not leaving that easy', and gives me a huge hug! WTF. 'We're better as just friends, I still want to hang out together', she says. I wanted to ****ing punch her in the face!
In ending (I know this post is long - I find it therapeutic actually), I cared about her more than any woman I've ever dated. Even though, it was a short span - I had thoughts about marrying her! SH*T!! (I need to call a shrink). I mean I am getting up there in age - 32. Damn!! My mother's like - 'I want to be a Grandmother' I could make her a grandmother this weekend, but I think she'd like me to be married first!
I know ending relationships is hard weather you're on the giving or receiving end. But I've been through this many times before - trust me - time does heal all wounds. Try to think about the things you didn't like about her in the mean time.
Mike