Relationships suck!!

[joe4speed]

Wow! Thanks for the comments!

The problem, is that I am a fool... as some of you know I've been dating a married woman, who was seperated for about 7 months when we met. He lived in NH and she lived here. He would come down every couple months and stay there with her, and they would do husband and wife things.(dinner, movies, sex...) That would kill me, but hey, they are married. I just convinced myself that I'm just gonna have fun with this girl, and never get serious.
Well I was wrong. The more and more we saw each other, the more and more we were falling in love. We were very serious as of about 5 months ago. Then he decided to move back down, and she thought she should give him another chance since he was the father of her baby. He was here for about a week before she realized that he hasn't changed and it wasn't gonna work. Well she decided that he could stay there till he finds a job and a place to live and gets things straight. The only catch is, that I still have to be in the dark. No calling her at home. No leaving any messages. No seeing her when he's around or if she's with her daughter, cuz she'll talk. So it wound up I'd see her like once a week, and the rest of the time she'd be going home. Of course I got mad/jealous, this would get my mind going on things that may be going on. She has a history of cheating so that goes though my head too. For three months, I had to be the dirty little secret. Everytime I would get upset/jealous about it, she would get mad at me, and it just seems that lately our fights have been getting more and more frequent. So this morning we got into another one because I called her house last night, and he was there and she said i put her on the spot. So I got sick and tired of it, and we decided to end it. For now at least. But thinking about it all, do I really want this girl? Who knows.... relationships suck!