Friend...

[KiltedBanshees93GT]

I lost one of my best friends in Sept, 2 days before the 9/11 attacks (bad month for us) due to complications from his epilepsy. I had never lost a friend before, especially one that I had known for so long (about 10 yrs). It has been tough since then. I think about him daily, but I try to remember that we are all part of the universe, part of a grand plan, and none of us are truly lost. Death is just another change, and our loved ones cannot truly be taken from us.
To paraphrase my philosophy:
We are all energy, and that cannot be destroyed, it can just change form.
End paraphrase.
to quote you:
Why the *** does it have to be her, why can't it be me? Why don't you answer that for me?

Just my .02, but maybe she has filled her reason to be here, and its her time to move on. Its not you because you still have something to accomplish here on Earth.
I say enjoy your time together, in the event of the worst, hold her in your heart, and try to find the meaning behind this, something that can only come with time, I know.
You have my sympathy, and empathy. Remember, there is a reason for this, even if we cant see it right now.
Hope this make sense

Jorge