After 4.5years she left me with no notice...

[jocatmust]

Sky,
I am sure that you clearly are seeing your mistakes. Going to therapy will help you and her get closure. That is the best thing the two of you could do. I wish my husband would tell me his feelings and go to therapy together. You two are very young and need time to figure out who you are and what you want. If you are not on the same page it will not matter. Be thankful that you did not get married and then have her tell you she does not know what she wants. Here you are married and saying what the heck!!! I am in that situation. I don't know what to think and would have never saw myself in this position of having to figure out Why? I promise in time it will get better and life will go on. Take that from someone who has been through emotion H for the last three months. Promise me the next time, you live together with someone, make sure you are ready to go to the next level if that comes. Good luck and continue that therapy, it will help you get closure and to not bring this into another relationship.