g/f and I broke up

[6T9PONY]

I'm sort of in a similar situation.

First of all, I have been with my girlfriend for 3 1/2 years. We have broken up 3 times. Once last May, and we got back together about 2 months later. Then again last August, and we got back together about a week later. Then we broke up again about a month and a half ago, and we got back together a couple weeks ago. I have broken up with her every time. We are now going through some very rough stuff since we got back together. I'll tell you about it real quick.

I broke up with her because I kinda messed around on her one night when we were in a big fight and I was drunk. She wanted me to stay with her and try to work it out and everything, but I was EXTREMELY pissed at myself for it and could not face her. I felt horrible. I wanted to be with her, but I was too mad at myself to be. She always told me after that how she would do anything to get back together with me and all that stuff, but there wasn't anything she could do. It was up to myself.

Well, the Monday before Valentine's Day I decided I was ok with getting back with her. I made up my mind and on Valentine's Day I sent her a dozen roses and a note that said "Will you get back together with me?" So we did and had a really good time with eachother over the 4-day weekend.

Then yesterday, she tells me that the night I decided I wanted to get back together with her, she was at a friends house and was drinking and kissed a guy.

Ok big deal. I can get over her kissing a guy while we weren't even together, especially after I cheated on her too. The thing that REALLY chaps my *** about it, is that she told me about what time it was when it happened, and it was damn close to the same time I was deciding to get back with her.

So now I feel like an idiot for getting back together with her because that's what she was doing while I made up my mind. But I didn't break up with her when she told me, I was extremely pissed and we fought about it a lot. But I owe it to her to give her another chance, so I'll see how the next few days go.

Today was extremely weird around her. I know it will stay the same and I won't be able to stay with her this time. I have to make this the last time we ever are together. It's not worth it to have to deal with all the **** that goes along with our relationship. Yeah we have a lot of great times, but the bad times are horrible and outweigh the good times. It's not worth it.

Moral of my story -- At this stage in our lives, it's not worth it to go through this stuff. We have too many things to look forward to and we don't need this crap to deal with now. Yes, you're right Josh, it does hurt extremely bad to go through it, even though we are only 17, and that's one reason why we have to go on with our lives -- WE'RE ONLY 17! It's time for us to have fun, do what we want to do, when we want to do it! Nobody to rag on us for doing something stupid besides ourselves! I won't take this to the extreme that PKRWUD did and tell you to celebrate, but I will say to go have a good time, and try to get your mind off it for a while. Good luck, bro.