Why am I such a Glutton for Punishment

[Mercury]

Thanks for you all's support. I know I sound like a whinny little snivling dweeb. I know I need to get a hold of myself and get on with life, but you all know, the first step is always the hardest one to take.

I thought about seeing a counsler about 9 years back for something that had happened (Nothing to do with relationships), but instead I spent 5 years of pure hell that I brought down on myself.

Those several incidents changed my whole life. My outlook, perspective, and perception of life changed forever.

With the help of a very small number of friends and my girlfriend, I was able to overcome all the nightmares, flashbacks, and Voices (Dont laugh. Not voices like you all think.)

If I was able to survive that ordeal without seeking help from Family or Proffesionals I should be able to deal with a broken relationship. I've dealt with several before. What makes this so hard is I've never had this kind of close bond with a Girl.

The bad thing though is once depression begins to set in from this situation, all the other events that haunted me for so long seem to come back. Even though there not related in anyway.

Well Let me get home now. I'm at work, and Charlotte Linehaul just called me to get my numbers. I can hear that Beer calling my name now.