What is Your Greatest Fear?

[1969Mach1]

No problem at all, I know the poll is alittle rough. But I did it going from what I was feeling at the time. Yeh failing in life could be all of those put together. But this really opens your mind up. I come home everyday wondering what problem is going to arrise. It seems like I am never happy anymore, something bad or something to upset me or make me sad is always there to greet me. My g/f has been acting totally different the last few days (I know that's woman for you) but I mean she is has totally changed for the worse. She has a guy friend that I totally hate I mean like I'm going to run him over when I see him, and he hates me too but all she does is say he is mean but she still talks to him, and she wants to hang around him. I don't understand. I try not letting that bother me but it does. I'm just bottling it up now. I say it doesn't bother me, but I just burn up inside. I know it wouldn't bother me if I knew my g/f told the truth all the time. She seems to have a thing of lieing to people and sometimes me so I'm not a fan of that. And I did read a email that she sent that she liked this guy so that really bothers me. So I started thinking, deap down into my head figuring out why I am still with her if she puts me threw all this. Not to say I am the perfect b/f but I do everything and anything for her. She means everything to me. And the only thing I could think of is that I am afraid to loose her cause I don't want to be alone. When things are going good I couldn't be happier, I love them. I feel like I am totally unstopable in life. But when they go bad I can't take it. I will see tommorow apparently that guy doesn't like me cause in my ICQ info I talk about my car and he thinks I am obsessed. Honestly there isn't that much, I just say like 3 lines or something. Ok I am going to stop here cause I was about to write a whole lotta nastry words. I'm just going to stop by saying I hate that sob.

Sorry I had to vent off some anger, well I can't wait tell tommorow probably a whole new day of crap to deal with. In a way I like dealing with these problems because I like solving problems but I'd rather be totally happy. Either way, happy holidays all.