After 4.5years she left me with no notice...

[jocatmust]

First, let me say that I am so sorry that you are going through this. I, myself, are going through not being with my loved one also. Not to get too much into it, I was married and after three months it fell apart. i am not sure exactly why it happen. I have took the blame for my part, but he blames everything on me. As I put it, it takes two to have a relationship and two for it to fall apart. I understand that it is hard when the person you love seems to not want to have anything to do with you. What happen on your part or hers, you are doing the right thing by not bothering her and let her figure things out for herself. If it is God's will for you to be together, you will. You can't make someone want to be with you. One advise for you, is for you to realize your part, b/c if she does come back, for things to be better, you must realize your part so it does not happen again.

Just like week she was talking to me about gettin married and stuff and thats somethin shed been pushing for for a while, and that I said I wanted with her but not till we were a little older. Then its this.
Not to put you down, but clearly you two have a different opinion of relationship and marriage. You don't live with someone forever. If you wanted to wait until you were older to marry, then you should have never lived together. Come on, living together is basically a trail run for marriage. This is very misleading.
Im smart enough not to do anything that would send me to jail or something, but I wanted to scare the shit out of him, I wanted to throw a cup of gas on him and hold a lighter and warn him if he wouldnt call her right there and tell her his true intentions with her I would burn him alive. which I never woudl really do though. What a disregard this sob has for trunign my life inside out, destorying what I thought was a rock solid foundation of arelationship. So much more to say, Im going to leave it at that. for now....
I feel in my marriage that lies were told on me that led my husband to believe things about me that were not true. You can't feel bitter, b/c then they win and you lose. You must move on the best you can. Life will work for you which ever way it is suppose to. I know it is hard and in time it will be easier. I have been dealing with my h--- for three months now. All I see is a divorce in sight for me. Basically, I waited 30+ years to marry, just to go through a divorce. At least, you are not facing that. Be thankful. I promise you things will get better if you believe it. Good luck and I wish you the best!!

-Skyler [/B][/QUOTE]