After 4.5years she left me with no notice...

[Skyman]

Thank you all so much. Weve talked so much the past few days, breanne and I, being more open and honest then ever before. We talked a lot today, and everytime we talk and express feelings more I feel better. I knew the things she said to me about wanting to get back together last night werent her true feelings. And the other people around her in her life have been telling her what to do, not to do what she wants. And thats what Ive been telling her. Its been ahrd but this has in everyway changed my life for the better, and I am honestly so shocked at how much better I am feeling tonight than last night. I told her she needs to do what she wants and do wahts in her heart and I am there for her in every capacity as I am for any of my friends always. She told me she honestly feels nothing love wise more than a friend for me anymore, and that did shock me a bit, but I am ok with it. She cant help her feelings and I cant be mad at her for them. And I know a lot of her pain is hidden and wrapped up in this new excitement this new man. The only thing that still eats at me is how he lied so boldly to my face, I feel slightly "one-upped" by him on that, but I am learning to let it go. I told her I wanted him to call me an appologize. Maybe thats not the right thing, ugh, Im not sure on anything, but I know I am feeling better, and things seem to be moving where they should be. God I had no clue in the world I would be who I am today last thursday. What a different person I am. Its quite amazing. I didnt think I'd be the one comfortably talking to her about her guy and her every feeling for him, but I am, and I feel good about it. This is shoot... either the #1 or #2 most life changing experience in my life, and definatly the swiftest change no matter where it ranks. Its funny that we lasted through the moves away for us both, and the moving closer was what ultimatly brought us apart.

I would list everyone here by name that responded, as your every post was INVALUABLE to me in feeling better and helping to cope and deal with feelings. Ive heard everyones input in my life, friends, family, the checker at vons grocery, aqaintences, and you guys, and every bit was just as valueable and all helped me to come to my own choices.

One thing I've learned is there is no clear cut answer to anything in life. No one holds your answer. Skyler + Breanne was an equation no one had seen before and one no one but those two people could find the solution too. Me alone is something only I can find the answers for. Yes peoples input is great in everyway to help you come to that answer, but everyone must find the unique solution they need on their own.

Id like to keep hearing form you guys. And this whole experience has really made me learn a lot more about life and talk about life in general. I am a much better pseron that can almost 100% express themself and all my feelings openly to anyone now. I thank God for it all. Wow, it sure is a reminder you dont know everything at 22, which I already knew, but needed a slap in the face.

-Skyler