Happy 24th Birthday to Me!

Mercury · 06-08-2001, 02:40 AM

Boy guys and girls, your a great bunch of friends.

Thanks for all the positive talk. I figured out why I'm depressed, its kinda a long story.

I'll try to make it short. Before I do though, You all probably can tell I'm the kind that doesnt hide much.

I feel I dont really deserve any recognition from my family. I dont spend enought time with the ones i love to deserve any gifts or Birthday celebrations. My Job demands so much of me that I end up neglecting everyone around me. Especially my father.

My parents are divorced, and my dad blamed me for the longest time (long story, but if it wasnt for me my mom would of never met my step dad). He finally apologized for blaming me a few years back, he lives in PA, I live in NC, I dont get to talk too him much because our schedules are totally diffrent, and when he comes down to visit, I'm always going out with my girlfriend, or going to work.

I feel bad and unworthy of taking any gifts from him, or any money because I dont feel that I've lived up to his expectations. Not job or financial stability wise, but in a sense, I feel like I'm a bad son, that I've robbed him of having a son.

I feel bad for losing so much time that I could of used to do things with him, and rebuild our relationship.

I'm sorry guys, I'm just wallowing in self-pitty.

Thanks for the birthday wishes though. You all are a great bunch of friends.

Similar Threads
Thread	Thread Starter	Forum	Replies	Last Post
Happy Birthday Bigbandjohn!!!!!!	MissBlondie	Blue Oval Lounge	2	02-13-2003 01:53 AM
Happy Birthday Me!!!	RedLilPony	Blue Oval Lounge	15	02-08-2003 12:55 PM
Happy Birthday Dan!!	Kamaro Killer	Blue Oval Lounge	15	10-07-2002 12:09 AM
Happy Happy Birthday Unit!!!!!! :D	Topless In Texas	Blue Oval Lounge	24	05-03-2002 05:41 PM
Happy Birthday 84_GT350	moonblue66	Blue Oval Lounge	5	08-22-2001 04:54 PM

06-08-2001, 02:40 AM	#1
Mercury The Redneck James Bond Join Date: Sep 2000 Location: Fayetteville NC Posts: 1,707	Boy guys and girls, your a great bunch of friends. Thanks for all the positive talk. I figured out why I'm depressed, its kinda a long story. I'll try to make it short. Before I do though, You all probably can tell I'm the kind that doesnt hide much. I feel I dont really deserve any recognition from my family. I dont spend enought time with the ones i love to deserve any gifts or Birthday celebrations. My Job demands so much of me that I end up neglecting everyone around me. Especially my father. My parents are divorced, and my dad blamed me for the longest time (long story, but if it wasnt for me my mom would of never met my step dad). He finally apologized for blaming me a few years back, he lives in PA, I live in NC, I dont get to talk too him much because our schedules are totally diffrent, and when he comes down to visit, I'm always going out with my girlfriend, or going to work. I feel bad and unworthy of taking any gifts from him, or any money because I dont feel that I've lived up to his expectations. Not job or financial stability wise, but in a sense, I feel like I'm a bad son, that I've robbed him of having a son. I feel bad for losing so much time that I could of used to do things with him, and rebuild our relationship. I'm sorry guys, I'm just wallowing in self-pitty. Thanks for the birthday wishes though. You all are a great bunch of friends.