Tired of Life and Things going WRONG!!

Mercury · 07-03-2001, 02:22 AM

When I was 15 and moved to Fayetteville NC, just a few months later, something happened that changed my life forever. I cant say because to this day, my parents dont know, and I have friends that browse through this site and post here.

Its something I have only told a handfull of people I trust to the fullest extent of the words meaning.

For 5 years, I had trouble sleeping because of reoccuring nightmares and found myself real close to suicide on several occasions. I had some serouis issues, my family thought I was on drugs or gay. I wasnt, and aint either, just having problems copeing with what had happened.

I found myself physically beating myself, and endless hours of despair and tears.

Then I met my Girlfreind, she accepted me for who I was, and all of my problems. I was surprised they didnt scare her away. She showed me the light at the end of the tunnel, and it didnt involve a gun, or a really high railroad bridge. She showed me that there is love in the world. I used to wonder why God had let what happened happen to me, I thought he didnt love me, I thought he was punishing me for something I must of done. She told me and showed me that I was wrong.

As you all mentioned, she showed me that the pain I went though can help other people who arent as strong mentally as I am.

after several years of recovering, I'm in pretty good shape now, still have a few problems that re appear every now and then but I'm leaps and bounds ahead of where I used to be.

Slider..

There may seem to be no end, but if you pay close attention to the people around you, and the surrondings, you will see a end to the problems. After years of searching, pain and despair I found it. I waited for someting to find me, never happened, you have to search, the exit to your problems is there. Be it a Job, a woman, a rare 66 Shelby AC Cobra 427 Street Competition(well okay maybe not that), its there.

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07-03-2001, 02:22 AM	#19
Mercury The Redneck James Bond Join Date: Sep 2000 Location: Fayetteville NC Posts: 1,707	When I was 15 and moved to Fayetteville NC, just a few months later, something happened that changed my life forever. I cant say because to this day, my parents dont know, and I have friends that browse through this site and post here. Its something I have only told a handfull of people I trust to the fullest extent of the words meaning. For 5 years, I had trouble sleeping because of reoccuring nightmares and found myself real close to suicide on several occasions. I had some serouis issues, my family thought I was on drugs or gay. I wasnt, and aint either, just having problems copeing with what had happened. I found myself physically beating myself, and endless hours of despair and tears. Then I met my Girlfreind, she accepted me for who I was, and all of my problems. I was surprised they didnt scare her away. She showed me the light at the end of the tunnel, and it didnt involve a gun, or a really high railroad bridge. She showed me that there is love in the world. I used to wonder why God had let what happened happen to me, I thought he didnt love me, I thought he was punishing me for something I must of done. She told me and showed me that I was wrong. As you all mentioned, she showed me that the pain I went though can help other people who arent as strong mentally as I am. after several years of recovering, I'm in pretty good shape now, still have a few problems that re appear every now and then but I'm leaps and bounds ahead of where I used to be. Slider.. There may seem to be no end, but if you pay close attention to the people around you, and the surrondings, you will see a end to the problems. After years of searching, pain and despair I found it. I waited for someting to find me, never happened, you have to search, the exit to your problems is there. Be it a Job, a woman, a rare 66 Shelby AC Cobra 427 Street Competition(well okay maybe not that), its there.