Problem with Love

[1969Mach1]

I need some advice or some ideas on what I can do on this situation - and look at it from my view and just don't say forget about her unless you can explain why you truely feel that way.
Ok here goes the story, it's rather long.

Things have been going a little rough with my g/f, but I was rather happy. We would have our little disputes, she would get mad at me for little things, but generally I was happy with our relationship.

My friend and I went up to her house on New Year's eve and her friend was there (for my friend to be with cause he liked her) and I was, of course, going to be with my g/f. We watched a movie (Pearl Harbor) and everything seemed pretty fine although I could tell that something was bothering her but nothing too serious; she is a girl, they go into these mood swings (Sorry ladies, most do not saying all, us guys do it too so don't get mad at me. ) Anyway, then she went through my wallet and found a peice of paper that was an advertisement to a strip club I went to last Februrary and it had a picture of a girl on it. She seen it before and burned the other one but I seemed to have another one in my wallet. Don't ask any questions about this. lol

But she knew it meant nothing to me and I didn't care for it whatsoever. To tell you the truth I wasn't even a big fan to go the strip club in the first place - that's not really my kinda thing but being a curious guy I decided to go but I went once and it was no big deal. But she was mad that I had the peice of paper in my wallet but she finally got over it and said everything was fine and we made up and out and she was fine. I went home and talked to her for a bit then went to sleep.

The next morning I went to my Grandma's for New Years Day dinner, just a little thing we do every year, so I got home around 7:00-7:30 and I went to check my email. She e-mailed me a video (through her webcam that I setup the day before New Years Eve) and told me her feelings weren't so strong as they were before and she was sorry but 'it wasn't working out and we should see other people' but - I also got a phone call and other messages saying she'd just panicked and didn't mean it. So we decided to go to the movies at 8:30, me racing like a bat out of hell to make it to the movies to see her.

Anyway I know during the movie she still felt the same way and she wanted to tell me but I wouldn't let her, it was like I was afraid to hear it again. I tried to ignore it or get her sidetracked and it seemed to go away and she was fine and back all over me like nothing was wrong. We went home and were talking on the phone and later that night/early morning she told me she still felt that way and was sorry but it wasn't working out.

Completely heartbroken that I was because she now broke up with me the day before our 6 month anniversary, I got 3 hours of sleep that night; I was in so much pain it wasn't even funny.

Anyway I woke up the next day and she felt bad and wanted me back but I said no, not tell I know this won't happen. She had to work and we already made plans for her to come over for dinner so we talked that night and I said not tell I know that this won't happen again and she said she couldn't promise me because she doesn't know how she'll feel a week from now, a month, and so forth. I said that wasn't good enough for me, and she said her feelings for me were 3.99 out of 4 so obviously it wasn't completely full so I am still assuming it was less then that and she was afraid to tell me.

So it's now the 5th and I still haven't taken her back and don't plan to for a bit cause I want to make sure this will work out. I can't handle this happening again.

But what do you think I should do? Should I take her back because she keeps begging me to take her back and I still love her so very much, she still means the world to me. I personally want to see how long she'll last, if she gives up on me after a few weeks then I know she wasn't too worried. I want to see if she gives up and goes out with another guy. If she does then the feelings weren't too strong for me still. It's really hard on my behalf cause I am a nice guy I feel like crap doing this to her. I just want to truly know how she feels about me.

Any advice in this situation or suggestions or comments?

Thanks guys for listening. I'm sure my grammer and spelling sucked but I'm tired and many things are going threw my head.