reaching out

[lx mike]

anyone know how it feels to be alone?? well i do and it's probly the worse feeling
that a person can have. now that my moms gone when i come home it's to an empty house
cause my brother is busy working or being out with his friends.
Ive never been one to make many friend at all cause of my shyness. When i'm online
it's like my one little world where i have milions of friend but when it's time to shutdown
then they all disappear with one click and then i am alone again!
Another thing cause of my being shy is that i don't speak up and tend to be ignored
and/or not noticed much at all.
Is this loneliness or depression?? except for the empty house part i have felt like this
for a long time. i'd give anything to have someone call me and/or ask me to go do soemthing but
it's usualy me that does it, (when i get the nerve).