Its painfully Obvious that I need to Relearn of few things.

[tireburner163]

Merc, in my opinion (not that it's right) I think you not only need to back off the throttle, you need to get in a Civic.

She is starting at business (my Dad did this: VERY stressful) and she has a small child. Both are big responsibilities. I highly doubt she wants someone in her life going "Look at me, look at me!".(no offense intended, just a example thats on the extreme side). Just take it slow and see how things work out. They may not, if not, so be it.

Have you thought about talking to her about this? It may or may not be a good idea (you'll have to be the judge of that). You seem to fear that your going to die alone. I HIGHLY doubt that! You are a young guy, you have plenty of time left. My grandfather told me once: "If you look for love you will never find it, but if you enjoy the time you have here on earth, love will find you."

Marya may be the one for you - maybe not. You can't waste time worrying about it. Just have fun and enjoy life.

Josh, aka the tireburner